I was told by a mental health professional today that although I still have a lot of anxiety, my OCD improvement has come on in leaps and bounds. And looking back over the past few years, I… see it? Blows my mind in some ways. You can barely tell I have it now. I just wish I could go back in time and erase all the horrible, gross situations it caused.
My entire life has been marred by OCD and well… You’ve seen the results in previous posts I guess. I’m looking for ways to “hack” it. There must be ways, right?
Alright it just finished, hardly any time to process it, but my initial thoughts are thank you, writers! Yes, “let’s have an episode about the importance of discussing mental health (and call it Can You Hear Me)” seems anvil-icious but it was important, you know? As a mentally fragile person I WANT people to discuss it! So there ya go. Other things I loved:
Time for some 2020 vision. (Sorry.) There are many things I want to do this year, things that will set up the rest of the decade, MAJOR things. So there’s that!
And I also want to try and wean myself off a lot of social media. It’s not healthy. I don’t want followers online, just friends, and that’s the part that Twitter etc isn’t set up for. Twitter will recommend you stuff from complete strangers, stuff you don’t want to see and aren’t interested in, just to try and keep you engaged. Facebook does the same, hell, even WordPress does it. I find it really frustrating.
So I thought maybe I would spend some of today archiving some older Twitter jokes/posts that I actually want to keep on here, and maybe I guess make that whole account private at some point this month? S’like, I just want to use it to talk to people I already know, I’m not interested in terrible people’s thoughts on the UK election or the Star Wars Discourse. (My god, the Star Wars Discourse.) It’s not a healthy enviroment, social media, it just… isn’t.
Reddit is another problem in that it is unbelievably toxic and terrifying, but at least it has a forum system rather than a follow one and you can downvote the many, many offensive posts you’ll find. (Plus, the individual smaller forums such as the fanfiction one are very nice on the whole, it’s just, don’t click on anything to do with news or politics.)
So anyway! There’s that but honestly… 2019 was actually good mental-health wise, and that’s… scary. Also sort of survivors-guilt-y because so many people I know are suffering right now. Sigh. I hope 2020 will just be better for everyone and also the planet stops being on fire.
Viewers with OCD review Channel 4’s Pure and share their own experiences of the condition
In the middle of my illness I forgot to show this to everyone. I got a chance to write about OCD for the Radio Times!
You know what I never see on Tumblr? Encouraging or supportive posts about people with trichotillomania and/or dermotillomania. I never see those posts because you can’t romanticize it, people don’t see it as beautiful and therefore don’t want to talk about it. It’s really fucking hard having a disorder that is so painfully obvious to anyone who looks and so hard to understand, so shout out to my buds with trich and/or derm, you are still beautiful and worthy of love
Yeppp. One thing that I do have an issue with in BNHA is that, even though a lot of the main characters are coded as neurodivergent and I LOVE that, the bad guy has derma and it’s definitely played for shock value :/
I have trich. It sucks, is embarrassing, and I can’t spell it.
