There should be more about about the less well-known symptoms of Obsessive-compulsive disorder, things such as
- hyper-morality (extreme black and white moral reasoning)
- hyper-responsibility (feeling responsible for everything to a self-destructive degree, even feeling responsible for events which have nothing to do with you)
- intolerance of uncertainty, (feeling very uncomfortable if you do not know everything about a given situation).
- Excessive and persistent desire for reassurance
- Extreme bouts of anger
Everyone who has OCD has it in a different form, so they might not show all of these symptoms but for others it can be a defining part of their illness.
my mental health
More mental health fandom problems
> reads 1000+ notes post saying ‘is doctor who over or did I cut the right people out of my life’
> instantly feels very nervous, because this means 1000+ people, whom I do not know, would like to cut me out of their lives
> Realise this is really stupid and irrational
> Get miserable
> Eat pizza
I really, really, really appreciate the sentiment behind the Doctor’s “Fear is a superpower” speech, but I always wonder if he got it wrong…
My anxiety really affects me badly these days. I’ll just state all this in as boring a matter as possible so I can avoid thinking about it: I’m so terrified of people dying while I’m not there. I get almost a full-blown panic attack if I don’t get texted back within five minutes. This has been around since I was a kid, and it just never went away. I hate it when family members go to parties or whatever, but it’s not fair to stop them, and I know that. I just feel like my anxiety is ruining everyone’s lives, and also I have to sit around a lot sobbing because I think people are dead and doing OCD rituals so much and I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. But I don’t think there’s a way of recovering from it. I just honestly can’t think of a way. I’m taking Propanolol now, and looking into hypnotherapy (even though I’m not sure if I really believe in it) but…I don’t know. The world just seems like such a terrible, dangerous place all the time.
Also searching variations on ‘anxiety recovering’ brings up pages and pages about how you have to DITCH THE MEDS to get anywhere, which is probably not gonna happen.
Also also I may not reply to messages about this til the morning, I feel too drained. So…er…it’s back to cheerful fandom blogging for a bit?
i hate hate hate hate telling people i have OCD!!!!!
i either get “oh i’m OCD too i always have to keep things organized :///”
or
“omg do you wash your hands a lot??”or stuff along the lines of that or even people telling me that i don’t really have it because i don’t do certain stereotypical “things” people who have OCD do.
like OCD is so so so much more than being organized. if you like being organized and stuff along the lines of that, it’s called being a PERFECTIONIST.
OCD is having obsessions and compulsions. OCD is hell.
OCD is NOT fun, do not tell people you would “love to have OCD” because it would help you become more organized.also HATE the whole using OCD as an adjective thing. you can’t say “i’m so obsessive compulsive disorder” ??? that’s like saying “i’m so anxiety”, “i’m so fibromyalgia”, it doesn’t work because THEY ARE DISORDERS!!!!!! NOT!!! ADJECTIVES!!!!!
The coverage of the Germanwings tragedy is killing me. I’m trying to avoid it, but I’m doing a really terrible job. Everywhere I look it’s “SEE THIS IS WHY PEOPLE WITH MENTAL ILLNESSES ARE TERRIBLE AND SHOULDN’T HAVE ANY RESPONSIBILITY WHATSOEVER”. When I’ve spent like the past year and a half having huge amounts of responsibility as a carer.
Weeeeeeee.