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I am having depressing thoughts today. These are mostly of the ‘no-one actually likes me, they all secretly think I’m a horrible person who doesn’t care and takes everything for granted, and I probably am’ variety. I haven’t thought like that for ages (although it’s been a shorter time than I’d like to admit) so I wish I wasn’t thinking it now.
Meh. I actually have a real life journal for this sort of stuff, but I couldn’t be bothered to go upstairs and get it. And I just wanted to write it down. Maybe I’m fishing for compliments or something, I honestly don’t know. I just feel very meh. Which is not a mood, and should be.
And so you don’t have to sit through a whole post of self-pity, some vague website quibbles:
-The thing that really makes me want to avoid ff.net? It’s not the fanfic, or the formatting, it’s the bloody pop-up ads. My computer doesn’t handle them very well, and it’s annoying. Really annoying.
-Y’know rottentomatoes? Anyone else reckon that the cutoff point for whether a movie is good or not should be 50% and not 60%? (Yes, this is what I wonder about in my spare time.)
God, I hate feeling like this. Maybe today was just a bad day or something. Got more homework than usual, too.
April 20, 2005 @ 7:54 pm
I know how you feel. I have lots of days like that. Just remember there are people who care about you, and just hang in there.
April 20, 2005 @ 8:18 pm
Thank you for that. :) Thank you muchly.
April 20, 2005 @ 8:20 pm
You are so very welcome. Take care.
April 20, 2005 @ 8:31 pm
*hugs you tight* I’m so sorry you’re feeling down… *hugs you again* I think you’re lovely. *hugs you* I don’t really think it’s fishing for compliments – sometimes when you’re down like this and feeling bad about yourself, I think it helps if someone tells you that you’re not horrible, and you’re not horrible at all. You write lovely stories, and I should have told you how glad I was to see you writing Spider-man fic when sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever see anyone writing it again! (*grin* Even though I know I will when the third movie comes out, you made my wait that much shorter! *smiles*) – and – you make beautiful icons. Classic icons that say so much. (Sometimes when I’m feeling down on MSN I use a James Franco “How do you think it feels” icon) *hugs you* I hope you’re feeling better soon! And that the homework goes away! Sometimes homework really doesn’t help at all. *comforts you* Hang in there!
April 20, 2005 @ 8:55 pm
*hugs you back* Thank you for this. And I think you’re lovely too- very much so. <3
April 20, 2005 @ 11:02 pm
o.O “Horrible” is NOT a word I’d use to describe you, Sarah ;) I understand though – we all have our down days. It’ll pass :) … Can I get a hug, too?
April 21, 2005 @ 6:59 am
*hugs you* It’s another day now- the feeling has passed, so you’re right. :D Thank you.
April 21, 2005 @ 1:49 am
*hugs tightly* The feelings will pass, be assured you are not a horrible person and we all love you *hugs again*
April 21, 2005 @ 7:01 am
Thanks. :) *hugs you back*
April 21, 2005 @ 11:33 am
Aw, Sarah, I’m sorry! I know how crap that feels. But you don’t need to worry, you know, you’re like the singularly most beautiful-souled person I know out of all my internet buds. No worries, my friend. *hug* And remember, tomorrow’s always another day.
April 21, 2005 @ 7:00 pm
Thank you Jess. :D You’re one of the nicest, sweetest people I know, as well. *hugs*