gffa:
gffa:
“When I was your age, all I cared about was not starving. I was living in a hole in the ground, and a Jedi found me. She may have been desperate and ragged like me, but she told me I had potential. And that was…Well, she only taught me a little before they hunted her down. And they made me watch whilst they killed her.”
Just thinking about how, even in this Jedi’s darkest hour, even when she was as run thin and desperate as a starving kid on the streets, even when she was being hunted down just for existing, this Jedi still saw a starving kid and took him under her wing, still told him he was worth something, still taught him about not hurting innocent people.
This Jedi would have had so little left to her, but still saw someone she could help and took the chance. That this is who the Jedi are–even when they’re ragged to the bone, they still look to help others, they still look to care for a kid they find on the street that they can teach things to, they still care so much about a kid that probably had no one who ever cared about him before, that her effect on Jod’s life STILL shapes who he is. He tries so hard to be a murderous pirate who doesn’t care about anyone, but you can see that he never actually wants to hurt anyone innocent and even lets his plans go down in flames rather than truly attack any of the parents or the kids.
This Jedi may not have been with Jod for long, but even decades later, you can still see the echoes of how much she meant to him, how her loss shaped him, but also how her philosophy still rings in his ears.
#star wars#skeleton crew#skeleton crew spoilers#jod na nawood#jod’s backstory is so much more satisfying than I was expecting#I was expecting an escaped youngling or super young padawan who became disillusioned with the world post order 66 and chose to leave the#order that ‘failed’ them and turned to pirating after a life of scraps when they realized they could be rich and not wanting anymore#and instead we got a hurt man clinging to the memories of a woman he likely only knew a short year or two because she was the first person#to ever show him kindness#she taught him discipline and compassion and just enough skills that when she was gone (and she knew she would be gone sooner or later) he#could fend for himself and eke out something like a living#I wonder if he thinks of her and their time together and feels guilty that he chose to use the skills she risked her life to teach him to#enact his own form of vengeance against the world that took the only person he ever cared about away from him#if he wonders at night when he can’t sleep if she would be proud of him#he obviously cares about her and respects what she taught him but wanted to be as far away from that lonely starving kid he once was that he#is discriminate about who he applies those teachings too#oh it must eat him right up and meeting the four kids from nowhere seemingly plucked from the annals of history much have dragged it all#right back up to the surface#oh jod na nawood you beautifully complex character I’m going to be thinking about you for awhile
@irisofthemoon’s tags punching me right in the feelings place