As y’all know, things have been…tough for me for awhile now.
Between my first seizure, sepsis, a brain cyst, a herniated disk, trigeminal neuralgia, severe disruption to my sleep schedule, more frequent dislocations, worsening fatigue, increasing pain, and more, my health has been a disaster.
On top of all this (and probably, at least somewhat, related to all this), I had a severe mental breakdown related to the anniversary of the last time I was raped. Though the initial breakdown eventually passed, I never recovered.
It’s been one thing after another on top of another for so long now. I haven’t had a chance to breathe, a chance to get better.
Now, I’ve become unable to work. I’ve been bed-bound most of each day for the past couple weeks. Today, I officially had to quit my job. I tried to take a leave of absence under FMLA, but none of my doctors would sign off on the paperwork. Each claims that my problems fall under a different specialty and that someone else should sign the paperwork.
For the past three years, I have been the sole provider for myself and my husband. My husband had to stop working three years ago due to his own health issues and only was able to start working again as of a month ago. He’s working as a substitute teacher which means his pay is inconsistent and not great.
On top of this, we will be losing insurance.
I don’t know how we’re going to manage. Between fucked up brain chemistry and our circumstances, I have been incredibly depressed and suicidal recently. I’m struggling to believe that anything will get better.
But, when the paranoia and anxiety release me temporarily, I’m able to see that there could still be good days ahead if I let myself get there. But, if I’m going to get there, I’m going to need help.
I need help to access medical care. I am on several medications that help manage various aspects of my mental and physical help. Many of these medications cause severe, potentially life-threatening, withdrawal if stopped abruptly. As of right now, I may be looking at having to stop one of my medications within the next few days as I’m not sure I’ll be able to afford it.
To anyone reading this, if you are able to help, even a little, I would so greatly appreciate it. Any contribution goes to supporting two queer, chronically ill, neurodivergent people get by during a trying time.
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I appreciate y’all so much <3