I feel pretty lame doing this, to be completely honest, but this time things are really just COMPLETELY out of my hands. My partner and I need help and I can only hope that this will somehow be our salvation.
The beautiful blonde you see in the picture is my partner Z. (I’m the tiny one with purple hair) We’ve been together for about 4 years now, and let me tell you, he’s the love of my life.
I found out at some point in our relationship that Z experiences SEVERE gender dysphoria, and more often than not feels like he has the wrong body. While Z is currently unsure whether he’s trans or just genderfluid, we both know for sure that most of the time he doesn’t feel comfortable with the body he has. Z likes to wear feminine clothes and makeup, something that I encourage 100% and am MORE than okay with.
Z lives in with his parents, who are most certainly not the most open minded. They believe that being transgendered is “sinful” and/or “wrong” and are wonderfully vocal about it. His mother, father, and sister are also INCREDIBLY abusive. His confession about having suicidal thoughts was met with anger, because apparently being suicidal means he “doesn’t appreciate” everything his parents do for him.
I’ve failed over and over again to try to save up enough money to move out and start our own life. For those that may not know, I’ve got a plethora of mental disabilities that make trying to live like a normal human being a living nightmare. I have Manic Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and ADHD, all of the severe end of the spectrum.
Thanks to medication and therapy I have my depression under control, but my Godforsaken ADHD has left me unable to finish school, and any hopes of keeping a job are shattered thanks to my Anxiety.
Its been this way for five years, and every damn time things seem to be looking up, life gives us both another blow to the gut. And its down to the very start all over again. I have no money, no stable income, and no job that I can keep for more than a few months at most, and it makes me feel completely useless as a partner and honestly, as a human being.
The only thing I know how to do is draw.
I’m ashamed to be asking for handouts. I already feel like enough of a low life to be asking for donations if I haven’t done anything to earn them. So I’m going to offer every single person who donates to us a full color commission, regardless of the size of their donation. It could be a dollar or a penny for all I care.
I’m just desperate to get us out of this miserable situation we’re in.
Please don’t feel pressured to donate to us or even reblog this, just know that I appreciate every single kind word, supportive gesture, or kind message that comes our way.
Thank you for your time.
-Oakydeer
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